The Tempted Guru
By Don Crawford
Thoughts of relenting grieved him and evoked painful self-doubts of
his authenticity as a guru. Was he presenting an artifice to his students,
before whom he espoused perfect self-control and self-abnegation? "All
worldly concerns are to be ripped from the mind, and the physical, emotional
and mental bodies to be quieted into a total blankness of non-being:
a state beyond all consciousness of self," he told them repeatedly.
"Only then can inner wisdom present itself for the enlightenment
of the learner."
He decided that to prove his value as a true guru, he would emulate
Gandhi. He would entice one or two young women to his rooms with the
goal of providing deeper insights into the Buddha teachings. He'd noticed
the smirks and the gleam in the eyes of some sensuous students, eyeing
him in a peculiar way as they exposed themselves. He felt they were
deliberately challenging him to prove he was truly free of all earthly
"Mosula, you are in danger, my chela, of risking more earthly
rounds by such regressive ideas. Think deeply of what you are planning
with these students. Where is the force of your convictions? Has your
will to Purpose become so tenuous? Do not forfeit your spiritual gains.
Steel yourself against these trivial urges and assure your soul of immortal
bliss before it is too late." Before he could answer, the image
dissipated before his eyes in a misty steam.